I’m not gonna stoop down alllll the way down to your level.  You’re on a level where all the angler fish live, a place where nobody would ever want to go.  I feel so sorry for you.  PATHETIC. You’re just a miserable person who tries to make everyone else who’s actually doing something with their life, just as miserable as you are.  I would slap myself if I ever started to live my life so negatively.  You think you can manipulate me and make me feel bad/sad, but sweetie, I’m a lot smarter than how I act & I know I’m better than all the bullshit you try to feed me.  You can keep trying to bring me and others down, start your rumors, blooblahbleee, but one day you’re going to end up pissing off the WROOONG person/people and your ass is gonna get FUCKED.

hmmm...hello xanga. happy almost valentine's day. i guess my valentine is momo. haha. omg it's been 2 days short of a whole month since seeing my baby doggy. i was afraid he had forgotten all about me. as soon as he heard my car...he already knew! he was going crazy, happppy! awww my son, i love yoooou! we cuddled the whole day as we watched the dog whisperer.

dang..i just got out the shower and my hair smells like chinese buffet! wtffff! buffet scented pantene?! anyway...my real valentine...he's in SD..AS USUAL. surprise mothafuckin' surprise! fuckin' daygo guys! haha. sooo my classmate/neighbor was acting kind of weeeird asking me questions like "if he showed up RIGHT NOWWW, what would you do?" and weirdo stuff like that. plus, my valentine kept asking me where i was going to be at on valentine's day which i thought was weird. i thought maybe he was coming up to fresno which i highly doubted anyway but i still told him i didn't know if i was going to be in fresno or over here at my mom's. he even sneaked and asked several of my friends over facebook/myspace for my address haha, but yeah...i kept telling him i didn't know where i was going to be at. soooo yesterday he told me even though he didn't want to, that he was going to send me a bouquet with chocolates and i was like !!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm not getting anything anymore but just the thought got me all  no guy has ever surprised me or has ever thought about surprising me like that before. sigh.

first college party last saturday. gary's birthday. wow. i've never been stalked by so many guys before in one night..or groped or felt up so much. yuuuuuuuuck. foreign exchange guys are nasty, thinkin' ALL american girls are easy. i don't think sooooo. then i almost drop kicked some bitch in the face because she was getting all butthurt possessive over the birthday boy who has a crush on MEEEE. not heeeer ugly assss. i was just trying to make sure home boy was okay! drunk as fuuuuuck! i broke away from the james bond 007 birthday party at one point with one of my roomies and my neighbor to find some dudes who could dance! we was tryna find some, as kia said, "SOME CUTE NIGGGGGAS!" haha she's black so she can say that. but they brought us to some wack ass white party and then they tried to bring us into their apt and we were like hellllll nahhhhh and dipped. we went back to the 007 party, peed in their shower..lmao and acted a fooool! ohhh and my other roomie! brought her homegirl to party with us..she's from south east daygo, too! i was like ahhhh! and it's funny because she sounds more white washed then i do. she said she'd take me to SD next weekend, so hopefully she'll remember to call me.

please remember to call me! i wana see my boo! my laos lover

i really need to start studying. haha. faaawk! i was up until 5 am again this morning haha. shiiit! i stayed up til 5 am last sunday night after a night of long boarding and hanging out with gary downstairs while the other roomie was "watching a movie" with one of the other guys. lol. i guess i'm really good for never skateboarding before. the guys were quite impressed. bwaha. last night belle came over again. she's been coming over a lot lately. she lives right below me. crazy shizzle. we went to go buy laq for her roomie's party that i decided not to go to lol because i was scared. i shoulda went because i like black guys. ahaha. then when i came back here around 11..the roomies were home and the guys came over..well just 2 of the guys.  its embarrassing because my apartment smells like shit. LOL it smelled like that when i moved here and i guess before i even got here so i knew it wasn't me. plus i'm one of 2/4 who actually fucking cleans up after ourselves. so the guys discovered some oldddd ass avocado, tomatoes and mucousy, green meat that expired over a month ago. ahaha fuckin sick.

sooo we ended up going to a bar even though my one roomie is only 18 but they don't check IDs so we just chilled, talked about our most embarrassing moments and listened to the band.  I got hella homesick when they played "La La Means I Love You"  They played that shit hella good! the vocals were on point, too. the singer dedicated the song to his daughter who isn't even born yet. i was like,  ahhhhh.

then krista drove us to some crack doughnut place at like 2am. lmaooo fuckin gary wanted to go to the ghetto soooo bad for some reason. soooo funny. poor mr banana republic. hahaha. then we went back to our apt and kicked it where i whooped the guys' asses in diddy kong racing. i got 2nd place in mario kart. and then gary kicked my fuckin ass in cruisin' world. i was LMFAOOO the whole time because his laugh is heckaaaaaa funny. i think it might be the funniest laugh i have ever heard ahahahaa. and when he speaks chinese its even mooore LMFAOOO. its kinda hot though. hahaha. what can i say? i'ma sucker for chaaanks. then one of the guys went to go kick it in the roomie's room and then gary boiled some water and drank it. ahahahaha. then i showed the boys my room and they were impressed. gary taught me more about the chinese culture and i taught him about LnL hawaiian bbq. then it was like fuckin 5 am and gary dipped. i think lorenzo left shortly after. he was reading to krista. lol it was cute. then i woke up at noonish because my lao called. rawwwr.

OHHH! but damn it! i wrote an entry in here last sunday but for some reason it didn't submit! so liiiiike i was blogging about COURTLY LOVE. i am in love but i don't exactly know with whom yet. haha. either that or i i'm just in love with the idea of courtly love. i'm in love with you but idono who you are yet. lmao that sounds so stupid. but i wonder where you liiive? where were you born? do you speak another language? are you tall? do you love animals like how i do? do you love to eaaat? are you funny? well you have to be funny or else it won't work. and you can't be disrespectful or a mama's boy either.  i wonder when i will meet you? have i already met you? will i meet you tomorrow? next month? next year? ten years from now? .:sigh:. why am i in such a rush to find you and start a family already? i really hope youre taking care of yourself. i hope youre achieving everything in life you want to achieve. hmmm..i wonder what you're doing right now on this saturday night? i wonder if you ever think about who i am, too? hmmm...idono. i guess i just have to be patient.

damn it i need to go buy some syzuuurrrp for my damn waffles. i forgot!

signing off.

i start school tomorrow?! wtf! this break was toooo short. i need to start having a regular sleeping schedule again. fucksicle! i keep staying up hella late. i'm  having way too much fun. teeeheeeeee! i was supposed to go bowling with the guys last night but i was too afraid to go without my roomies..cuz i'm still extremely shy around the guys. the roomies had work..as usual. i wanted to go but its kind of awkward cuzzz there's some obvious crushinnn' going on between one of the guys and me LOL its funnnneh. little bruce lee.

saturday night  we went clubbing around midnight and stayed out doing other random fun shit until 5 in the fuckin morning! krista is with the guys right now.. i had to do something at schooool and i guess i just missed her when i came home. darn ittt. hahaa i'm such a little hoochie. she drove them to the recycling thingy because they wanted to use her truck, aka big red. oh oh! i introduced carneasada fries to krista and mini bruce lee the other night 

i shoulda went bowling! i ended up staying home by myself playing mario kart AHAHA. but when bruce lee called me..he didn't give me enough time to get ready. plus he sounded all nervous so i was like ummmmmmm looool.

i'm sooooo over the duck he can seriously suck baaawwwwwlls. he asked if he could visit me this weekend and i was like ummmm nooo. LOL i'm so proud of myself...not letting myself get all ewiooertuirehhnf over a hot ass male. he's freakin hot but he's kind of douche baggish so i'm over it. sometimes he has an attitude problem that makes me want to staple his dick to the floor.  

sesssssy bruce lees here i come. boy crazy breeeeeeee. watchouuuuut.